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Sep. 18th, 2009 02:38 pmI'm 25.
Well, technically I'm not 25 until 19:27 this evening, but still. The day is upon me. Yes, I know 25=a quarter century, and yes, it's freaking me out. Aaaaack! I feel ooooold, shard it!
I'm sitting here going... But I don't *feel* any different. I don't *feel* any older. I'm the same woman I was (and that's still weird, calling myself woman instead of girl) yesterday evening. Do I have to be all mature and... parent-y now? I know I'm not exactly a paragon of responsible adulthood; I have my own way of doing things, I know it, I like it. I've openly said I want to be my generation's cool aunt figure. I'm not suddenly going to change the person that I am just because I'm another year older. Reconciling that reality with the calendar is totally doable, and shouldn't take *that* long to happen... I hope. I'm working on it. And I won't lie. It's going to take a little working on. I suppose my own preconceptions about just what people 25 and older think about and do are getting in my way here. I know I can still be me. I know I don't have to change the way I live and think and approach things and... everything just because I've had a birthday. I just... need to let that knowledge sink in a bit.
Good lord. I sound like I'm having some quarterlife crisis or something, don't I? Anyway. Serious rambling about my mental state aside, I'm actually doing rather well. On my grocery run yesterday - and I finally bit the bullet and became a member of the lovely local co-op, yay! - I finally found lavender tea. Needless to say it, plus a couple other flavors--dandelion root and rose hip herbal, and let's see if the rose hip one tastes like I remember it--came home with me along with a few food essentials. Whole grain bread, strong cheese and a couple other things, yes. Anyhow. My first-ever mug of lavender tea was sipped while RPing Sariel, and that was very much deliberate on my part. It seemed only fitting, seeing as she was the reason I wanted to try the stuff. And for the record? Yum. :)
Anyhow. I'm in Waupun for the weekend, just because celebrating with family is nice. I wish Katie were able to be here, but as neither of us drive, that's not exactly possible. Dang. Ah well, if nothing else I'll call her at some point or other.
Now I'm off to make an apple orchard run. Mmm, cider.
Well, technically I'm not 25 until 19:27 this evening, but still. The day is upon me. Yes, I know 25=a quarter century, and yes, it's freaking me out. Aaaaack! I feel ooooold, shard it!
I'm sitting here going... But I don't *feel* any different. I don't *feel* any older. I'm the same woman I was (and that's still weird, calling myself woman instead of girl) yesterday evening. Do I have to be all mature and... parent-y now? I know I'm not exactly a paragon of responsible adulthood; I have my own way of doing things, I know it, I like it. I've openly said I want to be my generation's cool aunt figure. I'm not suddenly going to change the person that I am just because I'm another year older. Reconciling that reality with the calendar is totally doable, and shouldn't take *that* long to happen... I hope. I'm working on it. And I won't lie. It's going to take a little working on. I suppose my own preconceptions about just what people 25 and older think about and do are getting in my way here. I know I can still be me. I know I don't have to change the way I live and think and approach things and... everything just because I've had a birthday. I just... need to let that knowledge sink in a bit.
Good lord. I sound like I'm having some quarterlife crisis or something, don't I? Anyway. Serious rambling about my mental state aside, I'm actually doing rather well. On my grocery run yesterday - and I finally bit the bullet and became a member of the lovely local co-op, yay! - I finally found lavender tea. Needless to say it, plus a couple other flavors--dandelion root and rose hip herbal, and let's see if the rose hip one tastes like I remember it--came home with me along with a few food essentials. Whole grain bread, strong cheese and a couple other things, yes. Anyhow. My first-ever mug of lavender tea was sipped while RPing Sariel, and that was very much deliberate on my part. It seemed only fitting, seeing as she was the reason I wanted to try the stuff. And for the record? Yum. :)
Anyhow. I'm in Waupun for the weekend, just because celebrating with family is nice. I wish Katie were able to be here, but as neither of us drive, that's not exactly possible. Dang. Ah well, if nothing else I'll call her at some point or other.
Now I'm off to make an apple orchard run. Mmm, cider.
